Sunday, June 28, 2009

Reason... the good the bad or the ugly


reason |ˈrēzən|
noun
1 a cause, explanation, or justification for an action or event :
• good or obvious cause to do something :
2 the power of the mind to think, understand, and form judgments by a process of logic : there is a close connection between reason and emotion.
• what is right, practical, or possible; common sense : people are willing, within reason,
• ( one's reason) one's sanity : she is in danger of losing her reason.

Okay so I was trying to understand the word reason and why we use reasons for not engaging in evangelism and or missions and to explain the whys or why nots of our situations.
Now the last part of the definition is particularly interesting because I think I have been in danger of losing my reason many times. This would not be the time to yell an AMEN while reading. I understand the words as they are broken down...
danger...scary, be careful, warn your children
losing...sad, bottom of the pack..never feels good to lose
reason...cause, process of logic, the connection between emotion and reason Am I losing my sanity? Yeah I know, not the first time I have questioned it, but as I try and grapple with the message this morning of change, I realize that perhaps it is easier to disconnect between practical and common sense, and go with the insanity plea.

Then BAM or BANG or whatever verb you want to use hit me. Slow but nevertheless it hit me. It was my connection with emotion and reason that has consumed me. I ache for the mission field, I understand outside the door of my house is the mission field. But that doesn't feed me or quench the thirst I have for Haiti. I yearn for direction and for the process of taking the next step. My emotions about missions is so strong I think maybe I lose my process of logic. Yes I understand the need for finances, medical issues and all things in our lives to be stable, but I want to ROCK THE BOAT!

I know the good or obvious cause to do something. I realize that God has been placing other people groups on our hearts and as we center our lives on Him, He will reveal His plan for our future. Which brings me my next word crisis...what exactly is patience and can I twist the words of Webster to make it take less time for me. Okay, okay, I know I have already been reminded today that patience is a virtue. But like the commercial I could say "it is not my forte".
I am all about stepping out of the boat, living by faith and rocking it a bit along the way. I will keep you posted. Thanks to all those that read and to those that encourage me to babble on.

Friday, June 26, 2009

Thankful for Tucker


After worrying for the Millar family at the loss of Bentley overnight, I realized how much we care for our dog Tucker. He is smart and gentle and does funny things to make us laugh. He is excellent with the grandkids and no matter how down I am feeling or tired, he is there to provide a pick me up. I am praising the Lord that Bentley has been found. I am thankful for Tucker that we were given a chance to be his people. To all the dog people out there, I pray you don't have to go through a scare. When you read this, look over at the pooch in your house and smile, I am!

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Living in a tree rather than within the trees...

This morning I realized how much housework consumes time. I love being outside and being in the garden is my happy place, so being inside is painful for me. For years we have been blessed with a great house and lots of room for extra kids, potlucks and summer fun. Now as Jussi and I share the same space that was once full of laughter and extra smiling faces, it seems big. This is not empty nest syndrome, we are not sad or feeling empty, just realizing if the house is empty it still needs to be cleaned and requires upkeep. LOL.

Not that this is a eureka moment it just never occurred to us that the space we didn't use would need cleaning. So I the cleaner majority, think Jussi's idea of living in a treehouse might just be simpler. I am sure 300 sq ft, would be easy to keep clean, but the trade off would be not being able to have great parties and summer BBQ's, and we love having people over! On second thought maybe a great weekend retreat in the treehouse. I can escape the housework, and still have a great house to have people over. Now to find some plans...building a treehouse would be right up Jussi's alley. While he is busy building I can plan a summer party. YEAH!

Saturday, June 6, 2009


Going to be grandparents YEAH! Congratulations to Jason and Kelsey on the news that they are expecting in 2010! You guys will make the best parents and we love ya so much! PS as Nick would say...we will love the baby more...


Dear Nana & Papa,

I do not have a face to see,
Or put inside a frame.
I do not have soft cheeks to kiss.
I don't yet have a name.

Not yet can you hold my tiny hands,
Nor whisper in my ear.
It's still too soon to sing a song,
Or cuddle me so near.

But all that will change come next February
When they say I am due.
I am your newest grandchild;
And I can't wait until I meet you!

All I ask between now and then
Is your love for me to grow.
I promise I'll be worth the wait;
Just think of all the joy we'll know!

So as you're waiting patiently,
Please pray lots of prayers for me.
I cannot wait to be a part
Of this wonderful family!

Author unknown..dates changed.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Holy Spirit


We had an interesting devotion this morning. It was on the Holy Spirit, and I really enjoyed Pastor Craig’s message last Sunday that a HOLY SPIRIT lead life is a strong life. So as I was reading or actually Jussi was reading I gapped out for a wee moment on a comment. “He has all the power; God raised Jesus from the dead, Rom 8 v11. Is your situation more difficult than a resurrection?

I laughed out loud and scoffed a quick "no". How often we think our problems are bigger than others problems or bring up more questions that answers. How am I ever going to deal with this or this is making me crazy and I cannot see an end in sight Situations that are frustrating, situations that are hurtful, or situations that challenge us to put the HS inspired life into practice; sometimes easier said than done.
I also wondered how many times I had said, "I wish I could erase history and start over at that spot or change what I said or what I did. "Guess what, we can. The Holy Spirit is a big eraser because Jesus died for us and we are living on the salvation side of cross. New life, freedom, and a life free from fear of repeating mistakes, one of love, acceptance, guidance…..free for the asking

Which brings me to a great quote on fear that I have carried around for years.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small, does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were all meant to shine as children of God. It is not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine we unconsciously give people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

WOW..I know it is a bit long for a quote, but how cool is it that we can, through our faith and our living a Holy Spirit lead life allow others to shine for Jesus!
Now that is multiplication!